Kya woh aayegi !!

Shaam ke 5 baje rahe hain, Mujhe wahan jald se jald pahunchna hai.. Main Bhagaa jaa rha hun... Us raaste ki taraf jiski koi manzil nhi hai.
Akela sa.. Adhura sa... bas ek ashaa liye bhaaga jaa rha hun

"Railway Station, Merrut" Yehi se meri zindagi shuru hui thi aur lagta hai yahin pe aaj iska ant hogaa..
Charo or ek ajeeb sa ehsaas mujhe ghere hue hai...sab log chal rahe hain , par main thehara hua sa ..aankhon mein intezaar liye hue...
Sab tham sa gya hai yahan pe ... shant sa ... thakaa sa man liye hue baith hua hun aaj main yahan pe.
Woh chai bechane waala ladhka mere pass aaya...yeh wohi to hai.. jiske pass chai pi kar maine 5 saal nikaale...par aaj  naa jaane kyun... mere pass kehne ko kuch nhi hai... lagta hai yeh bhi mere andar ki kashmkash ko samjh rha hai...
Woh jaanta hai mujhe.. par aaj main apne aap se hi anjaan hun..begaana sa.. is station pe aaya hun..
Ek Aurat.. saamne ek bacche ko khaana khilaa rhi hai... ek aadmi dusre pe chilaa rha hai... sab apne andar ki bhaav wyakat kar rahe hain..
par mujhe koi farak nhi padh rha... main anjaan hun in sabki zindagiyon se...aur aaj apne aap se bhi ...

Yeh bheedh kuch der ke liye tham jaati hai.. kisi na kisi ka intezaar karte hue.. Mujhe bhi aaj intezaar hai uska..pta nhi woh aayegi bhi ya nhi...aankhein usi ki pyaas liye idhar udhar dekh rhi hain...
Railgaadi ke aane ka waqt ho chala hai... sabki nazarein apni manzil ki or hai...
Har taraf shorgul hona shuru ho gya hai...
Dhimi dhimi khisakti hui aakhir gaadi aa hi gyi....Sab log bhaag rahe hain..
par ab main thehar sa gya hun.. aage kadam hi nhi badh rahe us taraf.. jahan meri nighaahein kuch aur hi bayaan karegi...
Har koi ek dusre se judaa ho rha hai.... ya .. mil rha hai...
Kya aaj woh mujhe milegi ... isi soch mein baitha hun aaj main...
kya woh aaj aayegi... phir se isi railway station pe...
kya woh aaj muskuraayegi... jiski chamak se meri zindagi roshan thi....
Aaj mujhe.. tumhara aur sirf tumhara intezaar hai... yeh khaali man tumhare liye hi tadap rha hai...
Ab to aa jao samne mere... Ab to aa jao saamne mere ...

to be continued ......

I still see her !!!

I am going to her home today  just to see her and want to say a word "Hi" from my side.
I took a bouquet of flowers from road side and reached her home , the routine which I am following from past 23 years.
She opened the door, saw me and went to her room. She didn't bother to look me back and turned her face towards a dark black wall.
I walked at her door and with so many auspicious feelings, i said "Hi" to her. She didn't look back at me .
I left from her home with a bunch of grief and  sorrow inside me which is killing me from past 23 years.

25 years before, It was not like that, we used to smile, we used to laugh, we used to talk with each other.
We were very happy and I was the best sister for her. She was the happiest and beautiful person in my life.
She was luckiest among all... because she always get everything in every phase of her life. She was best daughter and best sister in the world.
On her 24th birthday, She introduced a person named Mike to us. She fall in love with him and after sometime they get married.
They were really a blessed couple and was enjoying their time to its fullest ....
Her husband was a very caring and mature person and she was having a best time of her life.
Then after 2 years of her marriage, She got to know her biggest news... She was going to have a Baby.
She was very happy that day.. and we all celebrated her new upcoming happiness.
We greeted her and gave shower of blessings for her new begining...
It was really a day of dreams... and we are playing a part of her dreams.

On March 14th, night 2'0 clock, I was sleeping at my home and having no idea about my upcoming 24 hours.
Mike knocked my door.. and i got up with a shock..
He took me to his home.. I saw my sister trembling with pain. It was her 2nd month, and we have not expected such pain.
We both ran towards hospital , Nobody was there to attend us..  I was the only senior gynacologist at that time and
I have to handle this emergency case.It was really tough for me...
My hands were shaking...my eyes were sleeping..and I was not able to stand..
I started operating her...
After 2 hours..Her life was slipping from my hands... and I was struggling to caught her in my arms...
I was trying my best to catch a  breath of her... to make her alive...
I was watching two sides of Life and death in front of my eyes....
Suddenly I saw a ray of hope in her eyes. She opened it and spoke her last words to me "Let me go sister"...
and Then I got  a long silence from her side..
I tried really hard to hold her.. but she was gone...she was gone... she left me alone standing there in dark...
That night.. I lost my sister , somebody's wife and my parents daughter.

After this, Mike left that place But I still go to her home with same bouquet of her favourite flowers just to say "Hi" to her.
I still see her in that room... I still feel the scent of her...I still love her... I still believe that one day she will come and hug me.........